I can absolutely say that I have never gone through so much loss in such a short amount of time in my 55 years on this planet.
- In the past 2 years I’ve lost; 2 ladys, my dad, $110K savings, my health, and my mind.
Losing my mind came from losing all of the other things and I am trying to accept the losses and transfer on, which is proving to be quite difficult. I guess there is a lesson to all of this loss but I am too far in it to see the lesson. My job at the heating company is the only stable thing in my life lately. If I didn’t have this job I would actually be a single of those bums sleeping next to a building. Repairing and cleaning Heating as well as A/C systems takes my mind off all of these losses but when I get apartment they return again. The a single lady I lost was the best affixion I’ve ever had with someone and that hurt myself and others the most, even more than my terrible dad dying. I guess working on A/Cs and gas furnaces each afternoon is my lifeline and I need to go and thank my boss for keeping myself and others when I was crying at work over my losses. I was literally answering the phone with tears in my eyes trying to keep calm and help customers with Heating as well as A/C equipment troubles and questions. I guess you can’t see tears on a phone but they actually could hear it in my voice. I’ll be okay and sorry for dumping this on you this week. Love and luck to you all.